11.13.00 - 15:19:12

Whine.

(This is a warning.)

Whine whine whine whine whine.

Whine whine.

Whine.

That really isn't enough to get it out of my system, so I'm going to whine some more. I woke up and the ibuprofen had worn off and it made me cry to get up. Took forever, because I had the strange conviction that if I sat up in bed I would break something. Finally I slithered off the bed and onto the floor and eventually managed to stand up.

Ouch.

If I'm going to work tomorrow, I think I'll set the alarm for an hour before I need to get up and take drugs and go back to sleep and THEN get up.

It's so annoying. My hip/back of thigh (what muscle is that, anyway?) hurts like made, feels - I don't know - full, or something, so I do NOT want to stay still, but moving around doesn't help. Probably just makes it worse.

I want, like, tranquilizers. Or something.

It hurts. Better a bit when I'm sitting up, or at least maybe, with my mind on other things, I can deal with the pain and discomfort. But not well. And not much.

I don't know why this happened to me.

I know the exact moment I went from being okay to injured. And I keep thinking - what if I had waited? would I have made that SAME STEP five minutes later? I would be FINE RIGHT NOW.

I want to be fine right now.

The bad part about sitting up is that the rest of my back starts feeling twingy.

I'm outta soda and juice. I need to go to the store. I don't wanna leave the house. I need to find a good book to read, and then I can just curl up all afternoon. I tried sleeping but it'll leave me with a headache to sleep too much.

Still, that's what I really want to do. Sleep until I feel better. Just sleep.

I was feeling so good.

Two days ago. I was feeling just fine.

And now.

oooof. I suppose I shouldn't write a whole entry about how awful I feel, but I can't help it. I feel awful.

Twice. This had to happen twice?

God. I wanna cry.