07.03.02 - 1:07 p.m.

at least the dead gray haze of the last two days has disappeared. it's still hot, but the heat is bearable when you can actually see the sky and not a blanket of dead gray clouds shrouded by suffocatingly moist haze.

the river looks surprisingly green. i guess it hasn't rained for a while - a week or more - significantly - and the river isn't high and muddy as it was in may. it seems like a cool... gem, or something, summer's full of these sorts of miracles, but..., yeah, but.

...argh. at least my plants are doing well. hmmm. i don't know what to say. i guess the weird thing about being depressed is how it colors everything. i walked down to the cd store looking for a cd. they didn't have it, and it just made me feel soooo much worse than finding it would've made me feel better. there are just so many opportunities... and even when though i just know - know - god. this is incredibly pointless.

bleh.